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| Grandma in Crete in 1997. |
Saturday, Nov. 1, 1997
Sometimes the smallest moments can mean the most. I like to write about those.
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| Grandma in Crete in 1997. |
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| Clockwise from left: Evelyn, Justine, Sarah and Harvey. |
Evelyn
In 1965, 20-year-old Evelyn was traveling with friends in Germany when she met a man in a bar. He helps her request a song from the band, and later in her journal she describes him as a “very quiet, nice person” whom she hopes to see again in Greece.
In Athens he waits a week, visiting the same spot every day at noon until she arrives. Then Evelyn decides to leave her friends and travel through Turkey with this “beautiful person who enjoys meeting and talking to people, and looks for the good things that happen.”
By the time they reach Syria she describes herself as “in love” with the 27-year-old Dane who speaks English with a Scottish accent and hitchhikes in a kilt.
“I enjoy being with him so much. We don’t have to talk to each other, we can sit in silence for a long time, each having their own thoughts.” Her journal entries end soon after, but not their romance.
On Oct. 26, 1965, the pair married in Scotland, and Evelyn finally returns to Los Angeles in early 1966 with a husband.
Justine
Nine months after her wedding, Evelyn had a baby girl whose lungs could not keep her alive. But her third girl had lungs that worked too well, because Justine screamed all day, only sleeping when too exhausted to wail.
“But you’re not here, are you,” she tells her mother’s note promising to be home by 10. Soon after Justine starts to get ready anyway, there is a knock on the bathroom door. Thinking it is her mother, she begins stoking her anger again until it is drowned by the fear in her father’s voice.
“I need you to come out here, please. There are men here. There’s been an accident. Your mother’s not coming home.”
The day before, exactly 20 years after her wedding, on Oct. 26, 1985, Evelyn was killed in a car crash.
As soon as the deputies left her house, Justine sneaked into her parents’ bedroom to pull out her mother’s pajamas and pillowcase, secreting them away to smell whenever she wanted.
The next day she went with her grandmother to see the body, but her father stayed home. “I want to remember her as she was,” he said of the adventurous American who had been his best friend for two decades.
After Justine carried her mother home in a box, the family scattered her ashes on Carolyn’s favorite beach, where she had gone every weekend at dawn to help save a small population of endangered shorebirds.
Decades later when Justine last saw her father, he said his wife had been hovering at his bedside, trying to tell him something.
“I should have gone to see her after. You were right to go.”
“No, dad, you were right,” she said, wishing she still saw freckles instead of black bruises on her mother’s cheeks.
When her father died, Justine brought his ashes to the same beach to finally reunite him with his wife on what would have been their 49th wedding anniversary: Oct. 26, 2014.
Sarah and Harvey
Also on Oct. 26, 2014, Sarah was recovering from what felt like a car crash: The birth of her first son.
“All those women who told me how beautiful childbirth is, I thought they were full of shit!” she remembers thinking as she lay in the hospital after 26 hours of labor, unable to feel her legs or hear her baby crying.
“Babies are supposed to cry, why isn’t he crying?” she wonders as the ever-growing number of staff in the room struggled to get her boy to breathe. Finally she heard him cry, and waited anxiously for them to give him back to her, looking forward to finally holding and trying to feed him.
But they said he needed to go to the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit, and “only let me hold him for a second or two.”
After a week in the NICU, her baby finally came home, but his breathing problems continued. Sarah said it took two years for her to emerge from the tunnel of trauma, finally pulled through by the need to keep up with a now thriving and determined young boy.
“He stubbornly keeps trying to get what he wants,” said Sarah, both awed and frustrated by her son’s drive and focus. “He is smart in ways I have never been, and I love that so much. I am very lucky that I get to be with Harvey.”
Another wedding in Scotland: I got married where my parents did because they couldn't be there with me. And thanks to one of our guests, I ended up with my mother's wedding bouquet: Read that story here.
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| Photo by Nathan DeHart |
For years I had been dreaming of seeing Fern Canyon, an oasis of green and wet in a remote corner of northern California.
What was keeping me away? The four-hour drive from my home with few places that I could stay nearby without camping. But then a friend offered to drive me in her van — a van, no joke, named Fern!
That was cool.
Especially because even after all that anticipation, finally walking through a 50-foot high canyon covered in ferns didn’t just live up to my expectations, it exceeded them.
But the coolest thing about that journey in Fern was how it drove me back to some of my favorite childhood memories, only with some great new upgrades:
1. The water spigot
As a kid I spent tons of time in a van, especially the 1968 Chevy van my parents drove my sister and I to what felt like every campground in California. I remember many hours of being bored, hungry and thirsty in that van, and how whenever I told my father I wanted something to drink, he'd reach for the engine block between us and pantomime pouring me a glass of water from an invisible spigot, a trick that usually silenced me for at least an hour.
But Fern? Fern had water! A re-purposed olive oil can with a spigot that actually filled my glass with water. Score one for Fern.
2. The bed
My most vivid memories in my parents' van are of waking up in my sleeping bag while they were driving at night.
In those moments surrounded by darkness, with no idea where I was and no control over where I was going, it felt like floating in outer space. And yet I also felt completely safe, sure that my parents knew where we were headed.
So I would look out the windows and watch the trees and poles flying overhead until I fell back asleep, not caring where we were going, just happy that my family was going there together.
All those feelings came back to me as I laid down to sleep in Fern, looking up at the roof and feeling as secure as that kid in the Chevy, easily falling asleep for a solid eight hours without disturbing dreams or waking up once during the night.
And again, Fern had something even better than my parents' van: a comfy mattress for me to sleep on instead of just the floor or all our baggage. Score two for Fern!3. The surprise dinner
Perhaps to ensure that our journey in Fern was a true adventure, my friend and I did not fully prepare for the trip.
We did not make reservations for a place to sleep, but the friendly young person in the kiosk at Prairie Creek Redwoods State Park had a campsite to offer us.
We also did not bring enough food for dinner, but my friend suggested we announce loudly our need for food while walking through the campground in the hopes that someone would answer our call.
Sure enough, a man overheard us and suggested we drive five miles back to the town of Orick, where the local volunteer fire department was holding a fund-raising dinner. There we each bought a plate piled high with steak, baked potato, salad, green beans, and desserts.
But as happy as I was eating tri-trip and huge slices of watermelon instead of another protein bar, that meal in Fern could never beat the miracle M&Ms I ate one night in my family’s van.
My mother usually only let us have sweets on special occasions like Halloween and Easter, so it was quite the surprise when my parents stopped at a roadside stand one night on the way home for a carton of eggs, and for some reason bought a package of M&Ms for us.
I
remember holding the colorful candies in my palm like they were
precious jewels, eating them one by one so slowly that each had warmed
through by the time it reached my mouth. And I loved the feeling of the shell cracking on warm, slightly melted chocolate so much that I resolved to always eat M&Ms like that, if I ever got them again.
With no cell service at our campground, I could not get my phone to make a call or even send a text.
Luckily, the visitor center at Prairie Creek Redwoods has a working pay phone that I used to finally call home and tell my husband we arrived safely and scored a campsite for the night.
That phone alone was a wonderful trip back in time, making my friend squeal with joy when she picked up the receiver and heard an actual dial tone!
5. And, yes, even an old Chevy van:
Funny enough, we also saw an old Chevy van on our trip to Fern Canyon.
On the north end of the tiny town of Orick, there is a van that has been parked along the highway so long that it is nearly completely covered by the vines growing on its carport. It wasn't as old as the 1968 Chevy my parents had, but it was still super fun to see.
Thanks to my friend and her van Fern, I had one of the coolest trips ever:
And this video will take you to Fern Canyon itself:
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| Grandma "camping" in 1959. |