When the world gets scary, I look for flowers full of bees. Because watching bees makes me happy.

When the world gets scary, I look for happy flowers full of happy bees.

Like the poppies I met while walking the dog one day in a new neighborhood, a place that felt full of strangers until we turned the corner and found the sidewalk suddenly covered with flowers.

 

That was cool. 

Not just because those red-orange poppies were beautiful, with black-yellow centers that made them look like a bumblebee was visiting them even when one wasn’t happily rolling in their pollen, but because they had been allowed to carpet the walkway, pushing through the cracked cement and crawling up the chain link fence to stand tall and strong anywhere they wanted. 

So I knew those flowers were tended by someone like me, which was exactly what I need to find that morning.

“I know it looks disorganized,” said the man I met while he was outside watering those flowers a few days later. Sounded apologetic, as if expecting me to disapprove, he added: “But you gotta keep the bees happy, right?”

“Of course,” I said, and he smiled with relief when I added: “I don’t think it’s disorganized at all.”

To me, the sidewalk looked like love: Love for all the little things trying to survive in the world we paved, those scrappy creatures who can take any patch of dirt and sunshine we let them use and find a way to thrive.

So I loved meeting those flowers bursting through the concrete to show me I wasn’t alone. That not every human nearby coveted a trim lawn free of dandelions, and still saw water as something to keep their grass deep green and their cars squeaky clean.

Because the thing about those dandelions? They feed bees, and bees feed us by pollinating most of our crops. So that man using his water to help the bees is not only kind, but smart, knowing that we need bees a lot more than they need us. 

And I certainly needed the bees that day, because watching happy bees makes me happy:

My journals from February, 2000: Loving my first iMac, hating my first Cinnabon, interviewing at the San Francisco Chronicle, puking on the San Francisco Bay

Sailing on the choppy San Francisco Bay. Photo by Nathan DeHart

On Leap Day one year, I had a job interview at the San Francisco Chronicle.

That was cool.

Well, to be precise, on Feb. 29, 2000, I took a test at that newspaper to see if I was worthy of an actual interview, but to me it was super cool just to get a call back from the Chronicle, which was a newspaper I had grown up reading and admiring even before I started working in the industry.

I did pass that first test and landed an official interview (on the day their staff found out they would be merging with the staff of the SF Examiner!), but ultimately I was not hired at the Chron. I also did not get a job at the Santa Rosa Press Democrat, where I had interviewed the previous month, and I definitely did not tell my grandmother that I had quit my first newspaper job at the Vallejo Times-Herald before I had landed a new position!

But I still ended the month on a high, full of hope for my future in journalism, and full of gratitude that I was no longer spending several hours puking up pretzels on the San Francisco Bay while seeing nothing but porpoises on an all-day whale-watching trip:

Friday, Feb. 11, 2000

I went to The City, wanted to take the ferry but Stacey was working late so they asked if I could take the 6:30 one, which was a bus - crap. Chris had to drop me off at like 5:30 because he had to work at 6, and I sat in the terminal reading, walking. The coffee shop was closing so I paced, watched the big woman in the blue uniform talk with the coffee shop woman, get out her boxes of Chinese food and eat. 

Finally at 6:45 a city bus pulls up, and she couldn't give me change for 8 dollars and I sat and listened to a woman tell the bus driver, obviously they knew each other, about her medication, how she left her work in a huff and left her coat, out in the cold and rain, how the home she stays at has no good food, they don't cook what she can eat, and never have any "real breakfast food," how she wishes for eggs, bacon, maybe a sausage, how after room and board and transportation she only has 96 dollars a month. Damn. 96 dollars. I spend that much on one trip to Target. And how she thinks about putting a gun to her head. I guess my life isn't so bad.

We made excellent time. The bus was only like five minutes late, but when I stepped out into the rain Stacey wasn't there. FUCK! FUCK! I stood in the rain, trying not to cry, went into the Amtrak station and called, walked to the main building where the phones are, pack of men camped out by the phones... finally I saw her coming across the street, "Oh, I'm sorry, the ferry came, you weren't there, I panicked, thought you meant the Embarcadero, ran there."

We jumped in a cab and went to Heather's work, The Faultline, had two lemon drops, great chicken, and garlic mashed potatoes and green beans and split a brownie, talked about men and shows and breast-feeding classes and it was pretty cool. 

Me and sweet Stacey.

[I have no idea why the heck we were talking about breast-feeding classes, as neither of us had a baby or were even pregnant.]

We went home after midnight when Heather got off, watched TV and Heather ordered a pizza from North Beach Pizza, it was really good, with the cheese on top, kind of different. I got no sleep, though, just couldn't fall asleep; the light from outside, worrying, the alcohol, I don't know. Just kept waking up. Then Stacey's alarm went off at 5, she finally got up at like 7, tearing through the house like a hurricane..

Saturday, February 12, 2000

I felt like shit, but was excited. We pile on the boat after a hefty trek to the dock and a stop for all the women to go to the bathroom. I find a warm, dry place inside next to the skinny tourist guy drinking tea, but go out to look as we glide under the Golden Gate, it was pretty spectacular.

Then it got so horribly bad... The sheet said to avoid alcohol and get plenty of rest and I had done neither, and though it had stopped raining, thank god, it was choppy, the boat weaving and pitching and jumping, and I started to feel queasy, started getting real ill, but I refused to be the first at the back of the boat. 

I waited and waited, and soon this woman in red ran to the back, and a while later I went, throwing up all the pretzels I had eaten that I thought would settle my stomach, thought my stomach was empty, but I threw up again and again, the guy William going back and forth between us, asking if we were all right, giving us paper towels to wipe our mouths.

At one point there were so many of us standing at the back of the boat we were elbow to elbow, trying not to barf on the person next to us; some humiliation at people so close, but the need to puke was stronger.

Soon it was just dry heaves. The guy next to me in bright yellow says, “Fun, isn’t it?” I look at him: “No.”

And we rolled and rocked through “The Pumpkin Patch” and headed to the Farrallones, which was cool, but we didn’t see shit, just a Harbor porpoise or two, up and down and up and down and nothing but grey sea, everywhere. The buoys teased you, and the logs teased, and the birds teased, but we saw nothing. And felt awful.

As the islands got closer and closer, William came up to me and the girl I was standing next to and said we were only like 20 minutes away, they would be cutting the engine soon, and invited us up to the cabin. She smartly declined, but I let him insist, “it will be a nice change of pace, break up the monotony, take a walk.” And I trudged after him, sliding and crashing into the back of someone's legs and pitching into the cabin, up to the cockpit where you could see the islands, but it was hot, and stuffy, and the music was loud, and the view up ahead went up and down, up and down, and I felt nauseous again immediately, tried to hold it in as (the naturalist) Susan came up. William said, “Why don’t you give her a lay of the island,” and she looked at me coldly, paused: “I’ll address the whole group.”

“That's OK,” I said, wishing I could explain that I hadn't asked for it, I didn’t even want to be there, and when I turned and started yanking on the door, the captain said, “Just let me know if you need me to open that door,” and he opened it for me and I barely got my face over the railing and spit came up warm and wet in the paper towel in my hand, and William came out next to me, “I guess that wasn't such a good idea.”

Just let me be, aye, I kept thinking, God, this is bad enough without the guy hovering. 

And finally the engine stopped and we floated around the islands, she told us some pretty interesting stuff about the people who lived there, the egg harvesters and the scientists, but still didn’t see shit, and the boat made a wide arch around the islands; I kept measuring the size of the islands and their position, right, left, center, to make sure we were going back, and scanned the grey seas without moving for the whole two hours or so back. Staring straight ahead, joyous when I saw the bridge, begging it to grow bigger as my cold hands gripped the rail and the boat rocked me back and forth, my hips hitting the metal, blisters growing on my hands, but I didn't throw up again. I felt slightly nauseous, just waited for the boat to stop; shivered in my cold shoes with my wet toes and prayed for it all to end.

I so looked forward to it, six hours of whale watching, getting away and out of myself, to feel like a kid, to feel close to my mother, to get away from everything, and it was all so awful.

As we pulled up to the dock, Susan told us how it was a great day anyway, and to come back and do one of their other trips, and I don't know if I'll get on a boat again; just grabbed my stuff, headed off the boat and willed my stiff cold limbs to walk as fast as they could to get to the ferry. 

My feet hurt, they were wet and cold, and I was still nauseous but I shoved in almonds and pistachios and drank water. I was probably dehydrated, no water or anything for hours, and all the vomiting.

I got to Pier 39 and stood in line for the Vallejo ferry, waiting for the other boats to empty out. One took like 15 minutes, people just didn't stop coming out, there was more and more and more... finally I got on, I was so fucking tired and just wanted to call Chris, talk to him, tell him how crappy I felt.

I found the phone, couldn't get it to work. It only took credit cards; you had to call, then slide it in, "Error 37, error 6," just this damn recording, I could have screamed, punched it, cried.

But I sat, wondering if I could pay the guy two rows up to use his cell phone, or the girl next to him, or the other girl in front of me. They all had phones, talking on them, picking them up when they rang. God, I was envious, I just wanted to talk to Chris."  

Sunday, February 20, 2000

I am writing this on my new iMac. Partly because I want to, but mostly because the keyboard on my old machine is acting up again. Poor thing. It has been replaced, rendered obsolete. 

[My old machine was one of the original Macintoshes that my step-grandmother had upgraded to Mac Plus before gifting it to me. I used it all through college, where I first learned to hook up to the Internet and check emails from home!]

Chris using my old Mac at our desk with the cat.

Quite nice, this little thing. I love the little click of the keyboard, the feel of the keys. Listening to my Bob Dylan CD, sitting with my cat. He comes right in, can't figure out why I am spending so much time in here now. He's trying to find room between the desk and me to sit on my lap. I don't blame him, it's been so cold in here lately. Course now there's all this cat hair everywhere...

All right day today. Got online a few times, added some bookmarks for job sites. Nobody has emailed me on my new email, though. I was so crabby today, everything Chris was doing was annoying me; eating chips too loudly, crunching his apple, leaving the paper towel rack empty, rushing me before we went to Trader Joe's...

It was nice to sit outside after the mall, so fucking crowded and him looking for a tie to match the color of his shirt, "No, that's too light, no, that's too dark." I wanted to scream.

"You wanna go somewhere and wait?"

I was starving, so I went to Cinnabon, but the cheapest thing they had was a minibon for $1.79, and I had like $1.30, so I wander off and find an ATM, take out a 20, order a minibon and watch him pick out the tiniest thing ever, like an inch in diameter, for a freaking dollar 79? Geez. And it was disgusting. Dripping with frosting and butter and sickly sweet. I was sorry I ate it, I should have just thrown it away.

He went to work [Chris had a second job at a pizza place then to help pay off his credit card debts] and I said, "Just look at it like this, you won't have to put up with me tonight," and he said, "No, you mean you won't have to put up with me." Well, yeah.

But I exercised, watched "Felicity," ate my asparagus raviolis with my asparagus and salad, and now I feel all right.

Tuesday, February 22, 2000

I feel pretty good today, Was pretty crabby again, though, barking and impatient with Chris. Everything he does seems to annoy me.

I emailed (DT) at the Merc and sent off my stuff...still waiting to here to hear from Santa Rosa, been a week since I called to check, so now three weeks.

So I mailed off the package and got most everything else done today, good workout... got the food shopping done, in the pouring rain, and ordered the adapter for my printer last night. I should be all set soon, can print out new resumes here! I think the only thing I didn't do was practice my guitar.

I'm still waiting to hear from my grandmother about meeting in The City...

Nothing much else to report, I suppose. Figured out how to get the toilet to stop running, just turned the water off at the pipe, but now you have to turn it back on after you flush, Chris never does.

Me being here all day has turned me into this crabby hermit rat, or like gollum, mad at everyone, hating to be disturbed, impatient, wanting to be left alone and go on my computer, listen to my book on tape, watch TV. I'm watching too much TV and craving too much junk. Too much time on my hands. I'm never productive when I have too much time on my hands.

Thursday, February 24, 2000

Man, is it cold today. I am moving the space heater to wherever I go today, in here where I set up my printer. Shew, that was fun. Of course I no longer had the printer software, I think I tossed it out, but even if I had it, it was on floppies, so I couldn't have used it anyway.

So far, my printer has cost me over $100 to set up. I wonder how much a new printer would have cost me?

Well, I downloaded the software, installed it, and it works fine, but now I'm plum out of paper. At least I'm learning a lot. 

 

Well, yesterday I had a pretty nice day. I headed toward Point Reyes, but ended up driving across 37 to 121, heading up to Napa. It was beautiful, so green; big, white low puffy clouds, no rain.

I passed "The Fruit Basket" and saw signs for artichokes, so I pulled over, bought some nice, jumbo artichokes for 69 cents and some tomatoes. Lovely.

I kept thinking about going to Genoa's Deli, so I headed to Napa and got a smoke turkey sandwich, listening to "Primary Colors" and finally feeling free and calm.

But the panic and fear is settling in. I'm almost 30 and what am I doing with my life?

Do I want to go back to the boring and tedious copy desk? Do I want to do all that commuting?

But I need a job. I need to start working. I will do it in small, workable steps. Do not get overwhelmed.

step one: find a job.

step two: pay off credit card debt.

step three: rebuild savings.

future steps: find happiness: travel, new location, friends, interests, activities, work.

Saturday, February 26, 2000

Wow, the Chronicle called me Thursday. it's hard not to feel a little bit of awe, but I'm also very excited. I set up a test for Tuesday. They give you a 90-minute test before they go through the trouble of interviewing you, I suppose. 

And Monday I'm meeting my grandmother in The City. I'm already lying about my job, telling her I haven't quit, better to call me at home. "Where are you calling from? Don't you have to work? Did you give your notice yet?"

Tuesday, February 29, 2000

Just went and saw "The Talented Mr. Ripley" with Mary. Man, we've been trying to see that movie for ages. Met her at her hair stylist on First Street. "I'm hungry," she said, bless her heart, so we went and ate at the Szechwan restaurant, yummy chicken and snow peas and asparagus with beef. Sat and talked before the movie instead of after.

The movie was quite good, beautiful scenery, beautiful actors; good scenes, suspenseful, very long and involved, but it kept your interest. I like Anthony Minghella, he makes gorgeous movies.

I went and took The Chronicle test today. It was supposed to be raining, I was dreading the walk. Maybe if it was real bad I would take a cab, but like a sign, it stopped raining just as a I headed out the door. I got the paper as I got on the ferry, praying for it to stay sunny, got off an went to Starbucks again near Market and the Embarcadero, but I passed like five on my way there, two less than a block apart. I realized that part of Mission was probably not the best place to be walking, so on my way back I went down Market.

It was weird walking into the building. Empty, except for an old man at a desk in a big lobby, with three televisions going behind him. He said I had 15 minutes, sit and wait and he would call her at 5 til.

Sure enough, as I watched a silent Leeza show and the news of John McCain, he picked up the red phone at exactly five til and said I could go up to the third floor. It opened to a receptionist and SL was there. I put out my hand, "I'd shake yours, but I'm sick."

The newsroom was pretty empty, looked much like Santa Rosa, but she put me right next to her office, which was right next to one of the only women working there.

I set to work on the four stories, one about an Antioch jeweler's wife who was kidnapped, Clinton Christmas shopping, horrors of the Bosnia-Croatia war and a business story. It was all right; had to write certain size headlines, each letter given point values, etc. 

The last page was peoples' names, San Francisco people, the first name I recognized but couldn't place it, knew he had been elected to something... and when I got home I looked on the Internet -- new president of South Africa. Damn. Willie Brown was spelled Willy, Barbra Streisand was spelled wrong, they had Queen Latifah and Tony Morrison, all those I knew, but I wasn't really sure of Slobodan Milosevich or Boris Yeltsin. I think the first name was spelled right and that Boris Yeltsin just resigned. I hope so. Well, at least it was better than that damn Santa Rosa one. What, they don't have spell check?

I left and was feeling pretty good, a middle-aged man in a gray suit and fedora came running onto the elevator. When we got off he stepped quickly to the door to open it for me, but as soon as I got out of the door and was standing at the light, a man moved over in front of me and I stepped back, not hitting or touching anyone, but I hear this loud, snappy, "Excuse me!" from an older woman behind me. I mumbled, "I'm sorry," and move over. Damn, that was rude.

And yesterday was a fiasco. I got on the ferry at 10:30, walked to the dock and tried to figure out where the bus would drop off grandma, the nearest ones I could find were all at the Hyatt. I should have stayed there, but we said the Carl's Jr so I circled, and circled, walked round and round; up the stairs to the bathroom, back through the restaurant, round the block, to the phones. Finally I sat and had a chicken sandwich, "the one without cheese," and the guy was nice enough to give me another water when he saw I dropped a penny in mine as I grabbed my tray.

I called home again and caught Chris, he though she probably got the days wrong.

"What are you going to do?"

"Wait for the 3:30 ferry."

"Want me to come get you?"

I knew I should wait, but I said "Sure, meet me there at 2:15." 

I hung up, walked over to Carl's Jr and two minutes later grandma walks up with some guy; she gave him a dollar to take her to Carl's Jr, she for got where it was, and another dollar when he brought her to her "beautiful granddaughter."

[Grandma's report of that day: "Can't find Carl's. To homeless man. Took me to Carl's. Justine there!"]

I ran to the phone, tried to catch Chris, but he had left, so we headed to the ferry building, sat waiting as grandma ate her cake, drank her tea, Bought a banana, but she only wanted the cake.

Chris pulled up, right on time, and I felt so bad. "Oh, it was a nice drive, no traffic."

So we went to Liz Claiborne, and she spent way to much money on clothes for me. I should have just gotten the skirt, a long, black skirt, but I brought out the pants, too, and then she wanted to buy me a scarf. I feel bad. She didn't want to spend that much. 

But it was nice, and I wore my skirt today, wore the pants tonight with the scarf. It was really lovely. Mary was surprised. "Your grandmother bought that for you? She picked it out?"

When I got home, Chris was waiting, cooking up a big dinner. "Are you hungry?"

Made pork tenderloins, his own twice-baked potatoes, and asparagus. He's so much better at the housewife thing. I just hate it. It balls me up inside, makes me all tense and pissed-off.

My Grandmother's Journals: February, 2000. Bonus from my journals: Sick on the SF Bay, job interview at the SF Chronicle

I tried to stop transcribing my grandmother’s journals this year. I’d done five full years — am I going to keep doing this forever?

But I missed her too much to stop. And, as my world implodes around me, I find I need her precise predictable one even more to help me stay sane. 

So I’ve gone back to the safety of grandma, who wrote down every day when she woke up, what she ate for breakfast, any mail she got and what movie she went to see before settling down with the television and a crossword puzzle as she readied for sleep.

That was cool.  

 

Because I love reading her journals. And not just because she was my grandmother, but because I love all of the details this frugal and persnickety woman shared about her days. And maybe you will, too?

The entries below are from February of 2000, when she was an 84-year-old woman living alone in a trailer park. But don’t feel sorry for her, because she wasn’t sad, and neither was her home — she was the most fiercely independent person I have ever known, living in one of the most beautiful places I have known: Santa Cruz, California.

(I wrote more about her life in this post)

Tuesday, Feb. 1, 2000

Up 7:30. Slept good. Warmer, sun. 

Radio still on Alaska Air crash.

Out 10 a.m. Drug Emporium, fruit stand.

To Ross, got rag rug. Plus fairy philodendron plant. 

Home, Murder, papers. 

Called Schwab. 200 UMG sold yesterday at 80. Paper said 79.50 close!!

To post office, cost $6 to send registered! Before I sent “certified.”

Home, TV, worked on contact paper.

Bed 11.

Wednesday, Feb. 2, 2000

Up 8, usual breakfast.

Call from Quest re changing long distance.

To McDonald’s, coffee and read papers.

To Aptos, could not find Dr’s. Home, called on phone.

Murder She Wrote 1-2, more time on contact paper.

Mail: Got trade conformation from Schwab.

TV: JAG after news, Law & Order, West Wing.

Bed 11. Sleep 12-2-4.

Warm, sunny day.

Thursday, Feb. 3, 2000

Up 8. Cold. Ready by 11.

To Dr’s, ordered glasses. $187. 

Ate KFC. Rainy & windy.

Pebble Beach closed. WIND.

Home, wrote letter to Mina after M. She Wrote.

Mail: Bill from Waste Management, wrote check, balanced cash.

TV: News, Lehrer, JAG. L&Order, A&E Casanova.

Bed, news at 11.

Friday, Feb. 4, 2000

Up 8. Cold. Breakfast usual.

Packed vitamins.

To Kmart. Gasoline, ate breakfast.

Home, tried to Schwab for check. Can’t get thru, 10-20 min waits.

MSW, Mail: Postcards from Carla, Mimi, voting mail for Primary.

Called Justine, got cassette of soundtrack of Sweet & Lowdown. Good, clear.

Justine put song on tape.* 

TV: News, JAG, bed after L&O.

Rest 9-10:30, 11 news & crossword,

Sleep 12-4-8.

* I was learning to play the guitar by taking a class at the local community college, and grandma asked me to record myself playing a song and mail her the tape. So I played "If I Were a Carpenter," and boy do I wish I still had that recording, because I sang it, too!

Saturday, Feb. 5, 2000

“The Others,” 10 p.m. Ch. 4&8

Up 8, breakfast usual, some chores.

Out 11, Albertsons. Rain in early hours.

Lunch here, watched golf til 2:30.

To library, on Internet 2:30 to 3. Sent message to Justine, another to Carla, told both about blood donor changes.

Home. bedroom doors, cut contact paper.

Played tape “Sweet & Low.” [Justine here: No review of my song!]

TV: News, paper, crossword, “The Others,” 11 news.

Not good sleep, ate cereal at 2. Up 4-6-8

Sunday, Feb. 6, 2000

X-Files, 9 p.m. 2 part.

Up 8:30, breakfast usual. Chores.

Bank: Card to bank, not working.

Ocean Street, coffee/donut.

To show, “Topsy Turvy,” 2 hours+ [Actually it was 2 hours and 40 minutes!]

Mailed Calif taxes, paid Gottschalk’s.

Home. Ate, watched Ebert, interview with Clinton.

Tired, but watched news at 10, 11.

Sleep 12-2-6-8

Monday, Feb. 7, 2000

Up 8, breakfast usual. Wrote letter to Mimi.

Bank to get new card. Old expired.

To Carl’s for coffee. 

Home, some weeding.

Mail: Penney’s, Schwab, card from H. She thanks me for money? For Christmas/New Year

Balanced checkbook, lunch, M. S. Wrote. [Her pen broke, different ink now]

Finished contact paper on doors of wardrobe.

Usual TV.

Bed 9, no sleep til 12:20. Up 2, then 6. 

Goofed on form again, typed it.

Tuesday, Feb. 8, 2000

Up 8. Cold. Breakfast oatmeal w/banana.

Filled in form for new account.

Shower/hair.

To Drug Emporium, Trader Joe’s, McWhorter’s, bought stamps.

To KFC, got sandwich to go. 

Lunch at home, news.

Justine called 7 p.m. (dinner). She taking time off, going Sunday to SF to watch whales. Back to work next Wed.

TV: Law/Order.

Bed, 10 & 11 news, sleep 12:15-2-6:30.

Wednesday, Feb. 9, 2000

(9 p.m., Ch. 9, Greek's Civilization, “West Wing” 9 p.m. Tape one).

Awake 6:30, up 7:30. Raining/mist, all streets damp.

To laundromat, Longs for Xerox, Ralph’s for muffins.

Home, faucet is much worse. Called Dinnell, he answered. 4 p.m. appt.

Wrote to Justine & H sending update.

Dinnell early, 3:15. Took 15-20 mins, $72!!

TV: JAG, L/O, West Wing, news.

Rain in nite. Paid Visa.

Thursday, Feb. 10, 2000

Up 8. Breakfast oatmeal. 

Raining. Washed some, exercise.

To Drug Emporium, McWhorter’s, Xerox.

To Aptos, lunch at KFC.

Expected to see “Eye of the Beholder,” but lights out in Aptos, cancelled show.

Home, man here to get Frida's place ready to be moved! Could not get in, he very nice, moved.

Mail: Check from Schwab

TV: JAG vs. men’s skating.

Bed late, no sleep. 1 a.m. took melatonin.

Friday, Feb. 11, 2000

Up 8:30. Breakfast: Toast, tea, fruit.

To bank 10:30, deposited check.

To Gottschalk’s, looking for pants. No find.

Home, called Schwab, called Treasury. 30 year closed.

Mail: Schwab ad, Visa (retd), Sharon Stone (retd).

To post office, sent stocks registered mail.

TV: M. She Wrote, Lehrer, L/O.

Made order for vitamins, from PP, $108!

Rain most of day, very heavy. Santa Cruz Mountains flooded. Stopped about 5 p.m.

Read, crossword. Bed, slept 12-1-4-7.

Saturday, Feb. 12, 2000

Up 7:30, oatmeal. Read papers, finished crossword.

To Drug Emporium for paper, TV Guide, cookies.

To Radio Shack for battery for calculator.

To post office to change stamps. No, can not!

Home, rain spotty.

Wrote Mina, golf & tennis.

Paid cable, then to library. Messages from Justine and Carla.

Home, called Justine. Not there, Chris to leave message.

Justine called 7 p.m. Sick, bad weather. No whales. [Justine here: I posted my journal entry all about that horrible whale-watching trip below.]

9 p.m. Ice skating, National Championship.

Bed. No sleep.

Sailing toward the Golden Gate Bridge on a bumpy SF Bay. Photo by Nathan DeHart

Here is my journal entry describing a miserable whale-watching trip on the choppy San Francisco Bay (2/12/2000) written a week afterward:

We pile on the boat after a hefty trek to the dock and a stop for all the women to go to the bathroom. I find a warm, dry place inside next to the skinny tourist guy drinking tea, but go out to look as we glide under the Golden Gate, it was pretty spectacular.

Then it got so horribly bad... The sheet said to avoid alcohol and get plenty of rest and I had done neither, and though it had stopped raining, thank god, it was choppy, the boat weaving and pitching and jumping, and I started to feel queasy, started getting real ill, but I refused to be the first at the back of the boat. 

I waited and waited, and soon this woman in red ran to the back, and a while later I went, throwing up all the pretzels I had eaten that I thought would settle my stomach, thought my stomach was empty, but I threw up again and again, the guy William going back and forth between us, asking if we were all right, giving us paper towels to wipe our mouths.

At one point there were so many of us standing at the back of the boat we were elbow to elbow, trying not to barf on the person next to us; some humiliation at people so close, but the need to puke was stronger.

Soon it was just dry heaves. The guy next to me in bright yellow says, “Fun, isn’t it?” I look at him: “No.”

Read the rest of that trip, and my other journal entries for February, in which I describe getting a call back for a job at the San Francisco Chronicle, trying (and hating) my first Cinnabon, here.

Now, back to Grandma:

Sunday, Feb, 13, 2000

Up 8. Raining most of day.

10:40 a.m. called Mina, talked about skating last night, etc. 

Deaths: Chris Schully, yesterday, in his sleep in Santa Rosa; Tom Landry, X-coach Dallas, w/leukemia, yesterday.

Golf: Tiger almost got up, but Mickelson pulled ahead.

Taped Jefferson and Sally Hennings.

Sleep after news. Good sleep 1-4-9.

Monday, Feb. 14, 2000

Up 9. Breakfast tea, toast, applesauce.

Chores, out 10:30.

To Longs after walk on East Cliff. Very strong tides, only two surfers, one in to his ankles. Second got out, but came back in.

Home 12:30. Lunch, M.S. Wrote, Lehrer.

Mail: 1, Schwab, 2, NCE.

Shower/Hair.

TV: News, JAG, L/O. Raymond, Becker.

Late news: Surfer missing, West Cliff?

From Sat. 4 p.m. to Sunday 4 p.m., 4.34 inches of rain in Santa Cruz Mountains.

Tuesday, Feb. 15, 2000

Up 7:30, breakfast oatmeal.

To Kmart for lunch, groceries.

To Ross, got plaid pants, brown/black. (Dry Clean Only!) 14 petite, $12.63.

Home. Mail: IRS estimate, Master bill.

Usual TV: Lehrer, news, JAG, A&E Bio Nat Cole. Washed clothes in between.

11 news, sleep 12-2-4-6:30

Rain started 9 a.m.

Wednesday, Feb. 16, 2000

Up 9:30, oatmeal breakfast.

Checked bank balance, wrote checks for H & Justine. $55.97 each. To post office, mailed.

To Longs, bought tickets, $5 + $1.

Forgot candy, went to Ralph's.

To McDonald’s for coffee.

Home rest of day.

Mail: Ads from Waste Management.

TV: M. She Wrote, Lehrer, news, JAG, L/O, West Wing.

Ran Thomas Jefferson, taped second part.

News 11, bed 12.

Thursday, Feb. 17, 2000

Cold, used heating pad. Stayed in bed til 9:30.

Breakfast oatmeal. 10:45? Andra called from Paris. She going to visit parents 3/31 to 4/11, I can stay in her apt!

Wrote Myra with newspaper pix of wood on beach near boardwalk.

Looked for three-ring binder, none with exact holes I need.

To show, “Stuart Little.” Story dumb, but animation remarkable.

To Nob Hill, got 12 items.

Mail: Fone bill, ad

Friday, Feb. 18, 2000

L&Order Special, 9 p.m. Also 9 p.m., “Now & Again,” John Goodman.

Up 9:30. Breakfast.

Wore beige to get a hat. Warm, sunny.

Read paper.

To Ross, got hat.

12:30 to Scotts Valley. Lunch Wendy’s

To show, “Galaxy Quest.” Enjoyed.

Home 5:30. Mail: Check from Schwab,

TV: News, JAG, L&O, taped “Now & Again,” part 2 of L&O Special.

10-11 news, “Cold Water Classic,” O'Neil’s!

Saturday, Feb. 19, 2000

Up 8:30 (from 4)

Sore throat. Used salt, Listerine.

To post office, mailed letter to Mina.

To McDonald’s for coffee.

To Nob Hill. Got pot pies (2), soup, muffins.

Home. Golf, read papers, crossword, etc.

Packed vitamins, ate here.

Mail: Ads.

Sewed socks, tried organizing Treasury docs.

Ran “Now & Again.”

Bed 12-2-4-8. No REM

Sunday, Feb. 20, 2000

Up 8. Breakfast toast, fruit, tea.

Read papers, figured Cap Gains for stocks.

Wrote letters to Andra and hostel. (Hold for few days).

To post office. Bot stamps, mailed voting materials.

Back to mall, paid J.C. Penney, got candy.

Raining, the donkey tails fell over.

Cleaned out files, department stores, telephone, T Bills.

TV: Mozart, X-Files.

Monday, Feb. 21, 2000

Up 8:15, breakfast oatmeal, chores.

Ready 10:30, to Ocean Avenue.

To show, “Boiler Room.” Good lesson, selling fake stock. 

Home 3 p.m. 

TV: Lehrer, L/O, news, JAG, Becker. Third Watch?

Thinking a lot of buying out girls’ money.

No sleep. 3 a.m. had soup/muffin.

Read RLS, sleep 4 a.m.

Tuesday, Feb. 22, 2000

Up 9 a.m. (First 7). Not hungry. tea/toast.

High wind, rain forecast.

Sister Grace visited. Manager told her to move car.

To Trader Joe’s, got paper, etc.

Home noon. News, cold coming on.

Mail: Card from Myra, credit union.

Home all day, rain off and on. Some hard, hail.

TV: 2 JAGs, part of “Laura.”

Watched 10 news in bed, no 11.

Sleep 1-3-8

Wednesday, Feb. 23, 2000

Up 8, breakfast oatmeal. Out 9:30.

Drug Emporium, TV Guide.

Bank, ordered new ATM card. 7-10 days.

Mail: Adverts.

To library, emails. Carla & Justine, who is looking for another job. Applied at Santa Rosa. Got new email.

To Aptos, got new glasses. Got sandwich at KFC.

Home. Talked to Ellie, she selling again.

Bank balanced OK, H not cashed check.

TV: JAG, L/O, West Wing, news.

Forecast Monday OK, Tuesday showers.

Thursday, Feb. 24, 2000

Up 9. Breakfast fruit, tea, 1/2 muffin.

Chores til 11:30.

Got gasoline, paper.

Home. M. She Says. All kinds of trouble: Tape or channel?

Wrote Myra and Mimi, mailed letters to Andra and Paris hotel.

Mail: Letters from Mina and Myra!

Usual TV: News, L/O, JAG.

Bed 9:30, news.

Sleep 11:15, 1:20-3-8

Friday, Feb. 25, 2000

Up 8. Freda’s mobile home taken out, double-wide put in about 10:30. Good job?

Shower/Hair (cut)

Justine called, called back. Decided to meet Monday. She has interview Tuesday at 11 a.m. w/Chronicle, 90 mins.

Got gasoline, 1.499. Up 10 cents.

Raining. Home remainder of day.

No sleep til late.

Mail: Got bank statement, balanced OK.

Saturday, Feb. 26, 2000

Up 8. Usual breakfast.

Stayed in to keep warm, watched golf.

Tried to rest, called Myra to chat. She has someone to clean. Raining there also.

Woods won his match, over Davis Love, he wearing lovely top, pants.

Rain heavy about 11 a.m., wind in Salinas

Some TV, most junk.

Up at 2, hot chocolate, 1/2 muffin.

Mail: Card from Mina.

Sunday, Feb. 27, 2000

8 p.m., Greek Civilization, CH 6

Up 7:20, bed til 8:30 heat. 

Some showers. Feel better, energy level up. Organize tomorrow.

Same breakfast. Chores, golf.

Get ready for tomorrow [She was meeting me in San Francisco.]

Neiman-Marcus vandalized, 2:30 a.m.

TV: X-files, taped Magic Kingdom.

Bed, 10 news, sleep 10:30 12-2-5. Good sleep.

Monday, Feb. 28, 2000

Get up 7? Take Amtrak 8:55 a.m. Take car, leave at station.

Arrived 8:15 a.m., arrived SJ 9:50, train 10. (Use restroom).

Arrived SF 11:31, take Judah line.

Up 6, 6:15 oatmeal.

To bus 8:55, cancelled. 9:55, hour late.

Talked to woman, arrived 12:30. What to do?

To Carl’s Jr, can’t find it.

(Gave dollar) to homeless man, took me to Carl's. Justine there!

Got lunch, Chris came to get her. Changed mind, went shopping at Liz Claiborne.

Got her pants 88.50, skirt 69, scarf 28, 10 percent discount 18.55, total 166.95 plus tax, $181.14.

J to ferry, me to bus.

Home 6:30. JAG, L/O.

Tuesday, Feb. 29, 2000

Call Justine later.

Up 7:30, breakfast oatmeal. Raining.

 To mall, met Lili. Talked a lot, she 88. 2 Reno trips, then April Laughlin, Hawaii.

Had coffee, muffin.

Home, wrote rent check.

To bank, got $200.

To KFC, no pot pies.

Called Justine, not there. Talked to Chris.

Ate dinner, usual TV: 2 JAGs, read papers, etc.

Bed, slept OK. Cold in night. 

My Grandmother's Journals: January, 2000 "Cable out? Cut toe nails." Bonus: Quest for "Sweet and Lowdown" soundtrack

My grandmother's journal for January of 2000

Need some calm? Does a soothing routine of “usual breakfast, coffee at McDonald’s” and catching a movie before picking up a pot pie at KFC for dinner sound good?

Then spend a few days with my grandmother, who fastidiously wrote down each morning what time she woke up, then noted any phone calls, mail and what movie she went to see before settling down with the television and a crossword puzzle before bed.

That was cool.  

 

Because I love reading her journals. And not just because she was my grandmother, but because I love all of the details this frugal and persnickety woman shared about her days. And maybe you will, too?

Eating with grandma in Paris.

The entries below are from January of 2000, when she was an 84-year-old woman living alone in a trailer park. But don’t feel sorry for her, because she wasn’t sad, and neither was her home — she was the most fiercely independent person I have ever known, living in one of the most beautiful places I have known: Santa Cruz, California.

(I wrote more about her life in this post)

 

Grandma didn’t fly anywhere this month (yes, she was still traveling overseas by herself in her 80s!) but she was planning another trip to Paris, a city she loved so much she visited it nearly every year. We even went to Paris together when she was 80 and I was 25, and you can read both of our journal entries during that trip here.

Saturday, Jan. 1, 2000

Bed late. Cirque wonderful.

Not good sleep. 1-3-7. Rested til 8:30.

No reports of 2YK problems locally. NBC Rose Parade

Finished bathroom

To show, “Mansfield Park.” Put slavery, abolitionists into story. Lovely scenery.

Home, looked like rain. Cloudy, dark.

Dinner, news, ran tape of Marriage of Figaro. 3 hours.

Read papers, no JAG.

Sunday, Jan. 2, 2000

Up 8:30, usual breakfast. Worked on kitchen doors.

Lunch. Just did three cabinet doors.

Typed letter to Mina. Ribbon out.

Cleaned up, took garbage out.

Rain on Tuesday?

Made tuna salad.

Good sleep.

Monday, Jan. 3, 2000

Rain.

Up 7:30, usual breakfast. Cold.

Mailed letter to Mina.

Got pix for letter to Carla.

To Sears, no ribbons for typewriter.

To Staples, got four. ($8.38, up 40 cents)

Home, message from Margaret. Lost my rent check! 

Meet her Wednesday, 8-10 at office.

Some TV: L&O, Moonlighting reruns.

Worked on kitchen.

Bed early. Up 11:30, 12:30, 1:30.

Tuesday, Jan. 4, 2000

Up 8, usual breakfast. Out 9:50.

Jewelry shop opens 10:30.

To OSH, checked contact paper. Two women working there, gave me hanger (pants).

Got Timex, plus wall clock with cats.

Then got sweater, Sarah Bentley, brown. 13.00

Home, news.

Finished contact in kitchen.

TV: Murder She Wrote, Law/Order, etc. JAG.

Wednesday, Jan. 5, 2000

Visa 1/9 Meet Margaret 8 a.m.

Set alarm 7:30, up. Breakfast, new check to Margaret.

Home, sorted mail on table. Filed much.

Larry ill. Cold? Watch it!

To bank for balance, Drug Emporium for TV Guide.

To KFC, got pot pie (2).

Home, tough balancing bank!

Murder She Wrote, shower/hair

TV: News, JAG, Sci Fi, West Wing (good)

Wrote Mina

Bed late, slept good. 12-2-4-8

Thursday, Jan. 6, 2000

Up 8. Washed some, wrapped clock for Justine.

To bank, got U.S. West stock.

To Drug Emporium for diuretics, cookies.

To post office, mailed package. 3.20

To Hollywood Video, got 2: Four Weddings, 1 Funeral; Ready to Wear.

To Soquel School District, returned Notice to Vote.

To fruit stand.

Home, worked on taxes. Very little due, maybe overpaid.

Ran part of Four Weddings.

Bed late, not good sleep.

Friday, Jan. 7, 2000

Up 7:30. Cold, put on heat.

8, usual breakfast. Wrote letters to Sandra and Andra,

To Longs, got soap and corn.

To post office, mailed letters.

To Kmart for lunch.

To Carole’s she had cold/flu, pneumonia. To county show of Carole’s.

TV: Ice skating, 9-11.

Mail: Letter from Prudy, hard to translate.

Saturday, Jan. 8, 2000

1:30 a.m., car in front of Larry’s.

8:30 a.m. Lola’s car gone.

Called Myra, she gave me Sister Grace's number. Called 9:50. 

Had cold last week, caught from Larry!

Sister Grace returned call, Loretta with Larry. Looking for trained caregiver.

I relayed info to Myra.

Walked on cliff. Nice day.

To Trader Joe’s, got honey.

Home, football, papers, crosswords. (2)

Other TV not interesting.

Slept good 1-3-5

Sunday, Jan. 9, 2000

6:30 a.m. Larry’s TV on loud? Loretta gets a feel for problem.

Football: Vikings 27, Dallas 10

To KFC for sandwich, 1 pie.

Home, ran “Pret-A-Porter.” Many jokes.

TV: Gilda Radner Live, Comedy Central.

Bed late. Slept OK.

Golf: Tiger won at Hawaii, sudden death, putt vs. Els.

Monday, Jan. 10, 2000

Check mobile home insurance w/state.

Cold! Up 7:30, usual breakfast.

Loretta at Larry’s. Ellie sick, stomach flu.

To Longs, Hollywood Video.

Worked on 1099 for Treasury.

Talked with Mina, long talk.

Tuesday, Jan. 11, 2000

Bed late. Slept til 9. Had pear, toast and tea.

Sister Grace a no-show.

To Drug Emporium. TV Guide, etc.

To mall, ate Carl's Jr. Talked to young man. Works at Circuit City, goes to school.

To library. Emails from Carla, H and Justine. Justine got clock.

TV: News, Lehrer, JAG.

Bed 9, crossword, etc. Read papers.

Slept 1:30-3:30-5:30

Wednesday, Jan. 12, 2000

Appt. with Leon Costello.

Breakfast usual. 

To bank, mailed letter to MCI.

Got paper, Leon C. from 10:10 to 10:30.

Home remainder of day.

Mail: 1099 from Bell ATT.

TV: JAG; West Wing, good; Law & Order, 10-year-old killer girl, brain damaged in car accident.

Slept good til 8:30.

Thursday, Jan. 13, 2000

Up 8. Cold! Thermostat hard to turn on.

Wrote to Stimson, cheery letter and mailed it.

(He died that day, per letter from his sister.)

To Scotts Valley, thought show 2 p.m. But not so.

Ate KFC there.

Home, wrote Myra. Dinner here.

TV: Lehrer, news, JAG, saw. Some E, History.

No mail.

Friday, Jan. 14, 2000

Up 7:30, cold. Breakfast usual.

Called bank for T-Bills.

Larry gone 11:30 a.m.

To Trader Joe’s for groceries.

Home, Murder She Wrote, Lehrer.

No Mail.

To bank to check on 1099. 

Got candy at See’s.

TV: A&E, “All the Presidents Women.”

Foned AA, made reservation. Gave wrong passport #.

Saturday, Jan. 15, 2000

Cold, not good sleep. 2-4-8

Foned AA, gave Justine’s work.

Football: Jacksonville 62, Miami 7.

To Kmart for groceries. Home for lunch.

Football: Tampa Bay 14, Redskins 13.

Called Justine, told her trip. Gave her #.

Mail: Letter from Mimi, SS 1099, Master bill.

Worked on Calif taxes til 10 p.m.

News, bed, slept OK.

Sunday, Jan. 16, 2000

Awake 7:30. Cold, heat. Up 8. Usual breakfast.

Cleaned drains, both kitchen and bath.

C-SPAN, Clinton. Wall Street Journal conference.

To show, "Sweet and Low Down."

Looked at Thirft Shop, Wherehouse. No soundtrack.

Groceries at Albertsons, home. 

Ate here, some football. St. Louis over Vikings, Tennessee over Indianapolis.

TV: News, 60 Mins, Ebert.

9:30, tennis: Only first round.

Bed 11:30, read a bit.

Monday, Jan. 17, 2000

Slept deep.

Awake 7:30, heat. Up 9:30. Breakfast.

Looked at CalTrain schedule, etc. Called shuttle. Leave car or take taxi?

To Penney's. Looked at clothes, nada. Clearance, can't use coupon on that. 

Got shoes, two pair. Will take one back. Tried on some clothes to go with shoes/purse.

Home, ate here.

TV: News, JAG, Law & Order, ESPN: tennis.

Larry asked for matches.

Not good sleep.

Tuesday, Jan. 18, 2000

Awake 7:30. Cold. Ate pear and tea.

Out 10:15 to Penney's. Returned shoes.

To Drug Emporium, met Sister Grace. Told her about Larry.

Got coffee.

Checked Gottschalk's, clearance, somme Penney's.

Home, Murder She Wrote.

Mail: ATT 1099

Read papers, Lehrer, JAG, etc. (2)

Bed 9, crossword. No sleep til a.m.

Tried to sell, could not get through to Schwab.

Wednesday, Jan. 19, 2000

Rain today.

Up 7:30, breakfast usual.

10 a.m. tennis. Capriati won, 6/1, 4/6, 8/6.

To Drug Emporium.

Walked a bit.

To Burger King, got fish sandwich, fries.

Cold, rainy.

Home. News, Nite Court, M.S. Wrote.

Tried Schwab, nada.

Classified videos: Operas, films, etc. Took about 2 hours.

Called Mina, she did not watch the tennis.

TV: JAG, saw the L&O.

West Wing from bed, crossword.

Thursday, Jan. 20, 2000

Moon eclipse tonight. 6:03 - 7:01 p.m. easier to see, 8:05 total.

Awake 7:30, up 8. Usual breakfast. Packed vitamins.

10 a.m. tennis. Hingis won over new one. Good.

To library, two messages from Carla.

To laundromat on Portola. Walked up to 35th.

To KFC, got pot pie.

Home, watched news at noon & Murder. (Night Court is on A&E before Murder).

Called Schwab, said sell 200.

Tennis: Sampras and Capriati won.

Not good sleep.

Friday, Jan. 21, 2000

Up 8, usual breakfast. COLD.

Washed green sweater, wool.

10 a.m. tennis: Agassi won. Steffi was there. 6/4, 6/4, 6/3. Good match.

To Longs, got envelopes. Mailed card.

To Denny's 12 noon. X manager there, he remembered me! Going to Gilroy, 3-bedroom cheaper than here.

To Logo's, looking for "End of the Affair." No.

To Salvation Army, 75 cents for 2: Hunt for Red October, The Firm. Got fruit.

Home, walked a bit. Exercised early.

Tired.

Saturday, Jan. 22, 2000

Slept good last night.

Up 8, usual breakfast.

Mopped kitchen, bathroom floors.

To Longs for paper, McDonald's full.

To library, computer free. Sent message to Carla.

Home to eat lunch.

To town for show, "Cider House Rules." Very good.

Got some candy.

Looked for cassettes, no Sweet & Lowdown, only on CD. Got Buena Vista Social Club cassette.

Tennis: Davenport, Capriati won, Sampras won.

Bed 11:30. Rain most of night.

Sunday, Jan. 23, 2000

Awake 6:30. Rain hard.

Up 9, heat til 9:30. Chores.

Football: Tennessee Titans 33- Jack 14; Tampa Bay vs Rams 11-6.

Shower/hair. Rain most of day.

Cable out? Cut toe nails.

Watched 60 Minutes, still raining.

Cable out all nite? Checked 11, out.

Bed after news. Forgot tennis.

Monday, Jan. 24, 2000

Awake 6:30, up 9:30. Roads out, etc.

Breakfast usual. Tennis.

To Supercuts. Haircut, home.

Changed, watched MS Wrote.

To Longs, mailed letter to Master card.

Rain again all day.

TV: Bravo, "Shadows and Fog, with Mia Farrow, John Malkovich, Jodie Foster.

Tennis: Agassi, Capriati.

Rain let up about 9:30? 54 hours.

Tuesday, Jan. 25, 2000

Up 7. Usual breakfast. Tennis, Sampras won.

To Kmart, got groceries, etc.

Home. Salvation Army took twin beds from No. 2. Has small woman, walks to store.

Talked to Ellie re rain.

Murder She Wrote, Lehrer, wrote letter to Myra.

Mailed letter, walked on cliff. Cold. Good Waves at "hook."

Read papers, TV: L/O, JAG(2)

Mudslides at Seacliff campgrounds, snow closed govt in DC, Flights closed.

Wednesday, Jan. 26, 2000

Not very good sleep. 

Awake 7:30. Cold. Heat til 8:20. 

Usual breakfast. Wrote letter to Prudy.

10 a.m. tennis.

Got paper, stamps.

To library. Took name off Treasury list.

To Drug Emporium for TV Guide, OSH for contact paper.

Called Justine. Talked 15 mins or more! Said H coming up in next two weeks.

TV: News, JAG, ran Torvill/Dean, West Wing.

Tennis: Watched three sets.

Bed 2 a.m.

Thursday, Jan. 27, 2000

Up 8:20. Breakfast, news. Agassi outlasted Sampras!

To OSH, returned 3 small rolls, got larger one.

Watched replay of Agassi and Sampras.

Read papers, wrote to Sy, took to mailbox.

Mail: Pension info, elder hostel.

Mina called 6:30? Re tennis.

10 p.m. tennis, women's doubles. Aussie won.

Bed 10:30. Tired, slept good.

Friday, Jan. 28, 2000

Up 8. Cold. Breakfast same.

Bank first, mailed application for new account.

Stock market down 289 points, below 11K.

Got paper.

Tried Wherehouse for CD for Sweet & Lowdown, then Sam Goody in mall. To Streetlight, $15.99, $2 less than Wherehouse.

To show, "End of the Affair." Fair. Realistic sexual encounters.

To Longs, got padded envelope.

Home, tennis. Davenport won 6/1, 7/5. Mina talked of her.

TV: Bio, some JAG. Not good sleep.

Saturday, Jan. 29, 2000

Tennis: Men's final 7 p.m.

Cloudy. Up 9, breakfast usual.

To Longs, took pix of CD Sweet and Lowdown, federal taxes.

To post office, cost $1.13 to mail Justine CD + cassette. [Justine here: She wanted me to record the CD on a cassette because she didn't have a CD player. The letter she sent with both is transcribed below.]

To doughnut shop near fruit stand. 

Home, sorted taxes, etc. 

Ate, ran French tape.

Men's final: Agassi 3/6, 6/3, 6/2, 6/4. Fast, 3 aces last game.

Called Justine, told her sent CD. Talked about the movie, praised Sean Penn.

TV: Star Trek TNG.

Bed, crossword, etc.

Sunday, Jan. 30, 2000

Up 9, breakfast same.

Stocks down, Lucent up.

Read papers, chores. 

Lunch 11, vacuumed all rooms. Hard work.

Super Bowl, STL 23, Tenn 16. Couch afternoon.

Murder She Wrote all day. Some old I did not see.

Ebert talked of "Cult Videos" w/ "Play it Cool Man."

Ran French tape. Bed.

Monday, Jan. 31, 2000

Up 8, usual breakfast.

Shower/hair.

Looks like Lola left, Loretta around more.

To Kmart, got brown knee highs. Mended one pair.

Ate lunch at Kmart.

Worked on blue wool sweater.

News follows Alaska Air crash in water.

Started putting contact on wardrobe doors.

Grandma's letter mailed Jan. 29, 2000:

1/29/00

Hi: Enclosed is an addressed label to use to return the cassette, if you want to use this same envelope.

Tried Wherehouse, they were sold out — both of them, also they were $2 higher in price that this one from “Streetlight”, a large store on Pacific south of the Catalyst.

Do these CD’s have ‘coming attractions’ as the videos? Please run this first and if so can you leave them out?? The tape shows 60 minutes of time - I do not see the time on the CD. Can you time the CD, if it is more than 60 min, and you can get another tape, I will reimburse you. If less and there is space on tape, maybe you can play a tune for me - for posterity, if your machine has a mike.

Went to ‘End of the Affair’ - somehow it is missing something., Have seen both good & bad reviews. Greene was a devoted Catholic and this is semi-autobiographical ‘they’ say. Not worth $7.00, I wud say. Wait for video. Has many sexual scenes, realistic.

Thanks, and of course, you can keep the CD as I have no machine.

She signed this “Y” with a pen, then wrote below:

Did you see any of the Agassi-Sampras duel? I watched it at 12 midnight, 3 sets, at 2 o’clock after the tiebreak that Sampras won 7-0. I went to bed sure that S had won. !! Surprise!! It was a great match. Also today’s womens-Hingis petulant-almost cried. Some say she is ‘only 19’ as excuse-but so are the Williams sisters & Kournakova, they do not pout when losing.